i'm pretty sure i don't know how tired i am. i haven't slept soundly since 1995. there's something that comes with the job of being a mom that makes it physically impossible to ever sleep deeply again. your kids are part of your body, parts that are out walking around the earth and they don't seem to EVER stop, so you don't either. well, maybe briefly. just long enough to actually be able to drive your mini-van several places a day without running into anything.
last night, evelyn slept 11 1/2 hours. i slept 9 1/2 hours. at 7:15 a.m. i woke up realizing she had slept completely through the night and then some. i jumped out of bed, ran down the hall and busted into her room. there she was. arms above her head, eyes still closed, sleeping that deep sleep that pinks their little cheeks. thank God. she did it! and so did i. and it felt amazing. renewing and full and enough, for once. here's hoping it'll become a habit. for both of us!
